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Introducing:) The on3 and only Hema!Turning 21 soon.Currently studying in SIM-UOL( Economics and Finance)
Three main wishes: First is to die dancing. Second is to live without any regrets and third is to have this family for ever end ever:)
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Date: Monday, November 24, 2008 | Time: 11:10 PM
Life is a bore.... I am a sick bitch...Okay, those were the beginning words. And I didnt mean sick in that way but sick as in really sick. I have no idea what has happened to my bloody immune system! Now asthma and sore throat AND gastric flu. And not to forget my very own best friend, the famous fainting spells. Have I mentioned that I hate being anaemic?????? If so, then I am using redundancy here but I dun give a shit;)Nitish's first birthday bash was a FREAKING BLAST! We went to the chalet on Friday and I did most of the packing and unpacking(No complaints:) Then, played with Nitish till he went to bed at night. And then, for my favourite part! The decorations! Pa and I were in charge and it was mainly my idea but Pa incorporated some of his and the decor was SPLENDID! Anna's friends actually thought that he hired people to decorate but it was all done by US!!! I feel sooo proud of my decor committee: Pa,myself, Nans,Siva anna, Vicki Ka, Sathish, Raj and Ma. Bonding really happens when you start working together. And since I was doing most of the running and supervising, I had to miss being in half the photos! Hmmph but I actually dun care. Not photogenic anyway:)And Nans and I did a collage for Nitish and it was wonderful! Forgot to get a shot of it but hey...I AM IN LOVE WITH A MARRIED MAN! I know it sounds bad but SURYA is one in a million!Aargh! Lucky Jyothika...Sighsss...
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Date: Tuesday, November 18, 2008 | Time: 2:35 AM
I came across this in my email and I liked it alot. It is a conversation between a professor and a student but there are many beautiful meanings in it. Read it till the end. Very enlightening and very interesting:) An atheist professor of philosophy speaks to his class on the problem science has with God, The Almighty. He asks one of his new students to stand and..... Prof: So you believe in God? Student: Absolutely, sir. Prof: Is God good? Student: Sure.Prof: Is God all-powerful? Student: Yes. Prof: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn't. How is this God good then? Hmm? Student is silent. Prof: You can't answer, can you?Let's start again, young fellow. Is God good? Student: Yes. Prof: Is Satan good? Student: No. Prof: Where does Satan come from? Student: From...God... Prof: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world? Student: Yes. Prof: Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything. Correct? Student: Yes. Prof: So who created evil?Student does not answer. Prof: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they? Student: Yes, sir. Prof: So, who created them? Student has no answer. Prof: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son...Have you ever seen God? Student: No, sir. Prof: Tell us if you have ever heard your God? Student: No, sir. Prof: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter? Student: No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't. Prof: Yet you still believe in Him? Student: Yes.Prof: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son? Student: Nothing. I only have my faith. Prof: Yes Faith. And that is the problem science has. Now the student said can I ask something to you Professor. Student: Professor, is there such a thing as heat? Prof: Yes.Student : And is there such a thing as cold? Prof: Yes.Student: No sir. There isn't.
(The lecture theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events.) Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
(There is pin-drop silence in the lecture theatre.) Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness? Prof: Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness? Student: You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light... But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and its called darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't. If it were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you? Prof: So what is the point you are making, young man?Student: Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.
Prof: Flawed? Can you explain how? Student: Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
Prof: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do. Student: Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir? (The Professor shakes his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument is going.) Student: Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?(The class is in uproar.)Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's brain?
(The class breaks out into laughter.) Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?(The room is silent. The professor stares at the student, his face unfathomable.)Prof: I guess you'll have to take them on faith, son.
Student: That is it sir... The link between man & god is FAITH. That is all that keeps things moving & alive. .
This conversation was true and that student was none other than... DR. A.P.J. Abdul Kalam, President of India.
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Date: Thursday, November 13, 2008 | Time: 11:31 PM
Was supposed to update... felt like updating about yesterday's events... But somehow dont feel like doing it now...Super depressed, I honestly wanna get out of Singapore and leave every single memory behind.Having fun in the mornings but cry my heart out at night...What a super stupid life... But then again if its supposed to be all merry and fun,it would not be called life after all...Dont know what I did in my past life to be born as S. Hemalatha in this life... Am sick and tired of just being the 'eye' candy. Have never felt until LIKE this before..Have I mentioned that I hate men or should I say guys? I just wanna stay like this forever and for once , am going to stick to my RIGHT.GUYS ARE AN UTTER WASTE OF YOUR TIME AND EFFORT!Anyways, went to the zoo yesterday with Pam, Sateesh and Nans in the morning. We reached there at about 8.45 and left the place only at 1.30! It was super fun though half the time, we felt like we were in some horror movie with the entire cat family being all aggravated. I had a conversation with the baboons! Haha, my new found friends and at least they will not put you down or judge you according to your appearance. Okay, am losing it again.And... when we returned home, we found out that the thud we heard in the zoo was a guy falling into the tigers' enclosure and he died. Imagine my horror when I found out today that he COMMITTED SUICIDE! What a bizarre way to end your life! but then again, who knows what was going on in the poor guy's head?Ma had her graduation ceremony today and Nans and I went to help and children are really treasures. For a good few hours, I was truly able to enjoy myself. Then again, children dont judge you too.Had dinner with Durga akka, Jes akka, Muthu anna, Vadi anna, Devan anna and Adi. And realised that Liverpool lost to Tottenham for the Carling cup. Dont feel up to defending, Then again I am not a Man U supporter to always have reasons for defeat. Feeling lost but I do not need anyone's HELP. I can handle myself on my own:)
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Date: Thursday, November 6, 2008 | Time: 7:30 PM
I think that I am doing myself a favour and letting it all go.... Finally, FINALLY, I seem to be getting better so back to the tuition drama today. Will start at 2 and end at 6.30. The normal hours are back. I am going to fight the monster ASTHMA! And I will be triumphant! Muahahha. ( okayy, I think I am losing my mind.)I hate the stupid nightmare that I had a few days ago. What with baby dolls, and me chanting spells and shedding my blood*shudders* I cant even stand the sight of them and some lady who I seriously think is some goddess and coming and telling me the bad stuff thats gonna happen. How would you feel when it DOES happen? I feel like shit, I could have prevented it or at least stop it from happening. I am such an asshole. Aargh! Why does THESE stuff happen to me?????I either have to screw up my life or have to have these premonitions going through my mind. Up to me to believe it or not. Dont give a shit who cares about me or who thinks I am a psycho.Back to the depression moods...*ahem* As for your information, I DO get depressed:(Now I am back to feeling all grey and black again. Want some colour in my life! Should go and get it but not up to it yet. Should seriously stop brooding and do something about it. Something about what? Erm,... yeah about me being such a bore, you can snore just looking at me...Dont mind, have honestly lost my mind... Aftermath of being sick..
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Date: Tuesday, November 4, 2008 | Time: 8:26 PM
Deepavali was great to a certain extent. I had a lot of firsts this year. My first year when I got a saree, the first year I managed to get something for my whole family, the first year Ma and I managed to bake almost three batches of different cookies, the first year I baked a cake!( and survey statistics show that it was good, more than good.Smiles:) and the first year that I got really, terribly, horribly sick after that precious day.
The day after Deepavali was spent in the hospital where the doctor told me that I had lung infection and my asthma attacks were coming more frequently. He gave a brand new inhaler and a whole course of antibiotics that had to be completed by that Saturday. Told me to avoid going out so there I was , for a whole week, not going to school and not going for tuition. I felt I was a hopeless,good for nothing cos staying at home and doing nothing does not ring a bell with me. I dutifully completed my medication and still, the stupid asthma wont go away. I am still stuck at home, not going anywhere, still feeling a good for nothing and STILL, my attacks are not going away. I HATE ASTHMA! I cannot take cold drinks nor citrus fruits. The former I can manage but the latter?! How can the queen of fruit eaters be told not to consume fruits???? This is INJUSTICE! I have to go and see the doctor agggain... I hate feeling SICK AND WEAK!