I feel sooo ashamed that I have been contributing to Nans' stress for the past few days. I am sooo sorry darling. Please forgive me if I had hurt you and I promise that I will always be there for you. I am really trying my best to cancel off some of my tuition so that I can spend more time with you. Love you loads baby. I know this may sound a tad too selfish but I feel that I am the only one who has the rights to be mean to Nans cos I am her sister but I realise even I do not have that kind of right. So, I have to watch that very nasty temper of mine. But, this time I am gonna let my temper spew. I do not care how many hearts I break or how many friendships I wreck or how people are gonna view me after this. How freakyy idiotic can some people can get? Its your friends' birthday and it is obviously a very important day for her and all of you say that you are all true friends of hers but you wanna go for some other function? Do you all have brain cells functioning or not? You want friends to be there beside you but you cannot be there for that particular person? Hello? Friendship is a two way relationship. You di not expect to always receive and never give in return. Gosh, I am trembling with anger now. Nans, read my lips( or words?) , your birthday bash will go on and it will be a memory you will never forget. Be it if your so-called friends are there or not, the party will go on with your true friends( a.k.a Aish) and you will celebrate your sweet sixteenth birthday in all the splendour that I have expected. And that is a promise.
Love is a never ending song and I will be there to sing that last line with you....... always. Hehehe. This one is for you Nans and Farhan, this is my slogan. Lols, patented too:)
I had such a blast with Saras today. We both met up early in the morning for some bonding time and well- it felt really, really good. We are soo alike in so many ways but differ in the right ways that it is sooo easy being myself around her. We went to watch the movie, " Street Kings" and well, it was a great movie if you are into violence like us! Hehe, its such a coool movie, without including the REALLY colourful vocabulary. Saras and I were utterly shocked. The F word graced their sentences like the word ,"a." Goodness gracious! Haha. Keenu Reeves is super hot, even though he is getting old:(As usual, my favourite character, Mr Hots had to die in the movie. *Sobs*Other than that, it was a terrrific movie. I am sooo sure gonna force Pa to go and catch it with Ma. They are both gonna LOVE IT! And, for the sidenote, American guys are finger licking hot! They are sooo buff, man. *Sighsss...*
Oh ya, the deal with me and my disney movies. I sometimes doubt if I am turning nineteen this year or nine. But, disney movies are sooo beautiful and the morals are soooo nice. Like, from Beauty and the Beast, I learned to never judge a book by its character and to look skin deep. Ariel taught me to be headstrong.( As if I ever need a lesson in that!)*winks* and Cinderella taught me to hold on tightly to my dreams. The Lion King reinforced the point that there is a circle of life, and whether or not, humans like it, we ARE part of it. and, the power of a father's love, and there are sooo much more morals. Heck, I am glad I am this way, supposedly 'immature'. I rather be like that than anything. I am still living my childhood strong and am loving it!
These lyrics from Pochantos, Colours of the wind are wonderful...
You think you own whatever land you land on
Earth is just a dead thing you can claim
But I know every rock and tree and creature
Has a life, has a spirit, has a name
You think the only people who are people
Are the people who look and think like you
But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger
You learn things you never knew
You never knew
Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon?
Or ask the grinning bobcat why he grinned
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountains?
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind?
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind?
Can we?