Memoirs Of A Dancer

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Date: Friday, August 29, 2008 | Time: 9:06 PM

The day when the REAL heroes are honoured for their duties that are certainly a cut above the rest. Teachers, the creators of individuals and the pillar that enables each child to follow its calling and excel in whatever field that they choose to excel in. To know that I am somehow the part in passing on my knowledge to the younger generation makes me feel proud, I guess. And the day was indeed memorable for me.* grins widely*
It started out with me going to Ma's pre school, Kidszone Kindergarten, to teach her students dance for their concert. and they know me really really well, since I have been there countless number of times and I love them from the bottom of my heart. And, Justin touched my heart! He got me purple earrings cos " Its teacher Hema's favourite colour!" I was sooo delighted. And then, I helped Ma to look after them for a bit and we sang " I love you, you love me" at the top of our voices and I earned a few dozen hugs ( which nearly made me tear up.) Then, we ran around the classroom in circles, playing 'choo-choo' train. It was super, duper fun! I am such a kid magnet and I am soo glad. I feel soo alive when I am around children! They are the best thing!
Well, anyway, was supposed to meet Add, Sharon and Saras at YJ to go and see Madam Tay at twelve but Saras called me to say that the teachers were going out for Teacher's Day lunch so I decided to meet them for lunch. By then, I was in a super high mood. So when I met them at Burger King, I was totally acting crazy and wacky( and entertaining them. Lols.) Keith , MJ and Mala joined us shortly, and we were just sitting around and talking. Oh, how I missed those good old days. Then, Saras and Sharon left so I went to Popular with Add and Mala to find for that book but to no avail.Aargh! Then , walked back to Kidszone to help out Ma and then, left for tuition.
After Anna's tuition, met up with Nandhini to go to Swensens for Ma's teacher's day celebration. Hehe. So we gatecrashed the dinner. But we ended talking with teacher Nur and Janelle and it was super fun. Only left at about ten. It was a REALLY fun day though by the end, I was beat but very very happy:)

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Date: Thursday, August 28, 2008 | Time: 4:15 AM

Finally, FINALLY, I have the time to update... Since Sakthivel is sick and I am free for this evening- let me repeat myself FINALLY! School has been really great though the lecturers are starting to pile up the assignments and I have a Stats test the week after next. Not that it will be counted or anything but I still wanna ace it. Just the nerd in me talking, I guess. Hehex. So, I have to study. I really cant believe that I am managing to do all that I wanted to do, with the major exception of pampering myself. But, then I have always been used to it. I am sincerely glad that just because my parents provide me with everything and I mean literally everything, I am not some pampered princess. I am a princess but I am not spoilt. I am fully aware that I realise the importance of money slightly more than the people in my age do, and I guess I am glad for that. I mean I do indulge in buying a book or a blouse once in a while but thats about it. The future is something we NEED to think about but fail to do so.
Well, anyways, with school, assignments, tuition, dance and sangeetam lessons and the occasional run or swim, I am beat. I do not even have time for shopping! Boo hoo. And I want to meet up and go out with soo many people. Aargh! I guess, I have to make time:)

I was just thinking two years in advance when I will become the big 21 and was just mentally thinking up the speech and I realised that I have loads to be thankful for ( and the speech will turn out to about 5 pages.Hehehe.) and that I should start by being more thankful for the gifts that God has bestowed upon me.

I urgently need:)
A new saree!- for sangeetam performance
T-shirts!-for school
More skirts-to add to my collection:P
Earrings-*ahem* just.
Valley of Silence by Nora Roberts-I need that book!

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Date: Thursday, August 21, 2008 | Time: 7:24 PM

I am feeling thrilled, delighted, exhilarated, pleased( ok, all the words mean the same thing, I think I should have been a thesaurus in my last life.) Lol. I am an aunt once again! Now, I have a niece AND a nephew to spoil rotten. Hehe. I am gonna be the aunt who is gonna pamper them like shit. Haha, a new edition to the family and it feels great! The next generation is rising! Wayyy coool...
I am a pest, I know but I still love being the annoying pest. Spent the last night thinking about the qualities I would like my significant other half to have.
* Must have a great singing voice( since I am a dance fanatic:P)
* Must play soccer
* Have long, dark curly hair, the type that curls at the nape of the neck. ( Like Patrick Dempseyy*swoons*)
* Must LOVE AND ADORE children.
* Must NOT be a MCP( the type that wants to make all the decisions and feels that the Male kind is superior.*Blehx*.)
*Must be a gentlemen( the type that opens car doors and gates open for you( Nans, sounds familiar?*winks*)
* Must love me for who I am.

Ok, I think the last one is the killer. Hehe. But knowing my luck, I am going to fall for the guy who is gonna be the complete opposite:)

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Date: Wednesday, August 13, 2008 | Time: 8:10 AM

School has been FANTASTIC! As in really , really good. I am enjoying every bit of it( okay, so probably not the waking up part but still:P). The going to school with Pam, the lectures, the going back home with Pam and Pam! Haha, I just realised that she is REALLY wonderful company and as usual, has realised that God has a reason for whatever He is doing. It has been two weeks into uni and I have made three friends. It is like really hard to make friends since everyone already have their own cliques. But I am still trying and hopefully, will succeed.
*fingers crossed*

Well anyways, Tuesdays are hell days for Pam so decided to keep her company( I had tuition at four thirty, so I had loads of time to kill) We decided to go to Singapore Poly, her Alma mater, for lunch. The food there was nice and sooo affordable! I loved the environment too! I had vegetarian spaghetti( since I am a veg now and all.) and she had some omelette. Then, we decided to tour the place. It was soo cool, walking around everywhere, to the various blocks( and they had plenty!) and Pam was recalling all her memories at various spots and it was just a wonderful experience. We have decided to go there again when my fast has ended.*Cheers*
Then, we still had a few hours left so I decided to go back home but I have forgotten to bring my house keys! *curses* So, Pam and I decided to honour the Jurong Library and I fell in love with the place- literally! I went in search for Nora Roberts novels and managed to get my hands on three. Yipee! That made my day! I am such a Nora Roberts freak!*giggles* I am going to start my own collection:)

Then today, lecture ended really early so was supposed to meet Ma at her workplace. And there I was, at bout one in the noon, walking towards Chong Pang when my flip flops decided to give way. Aargh! There is some thing with me and footwear. So anyways, I had to walk barefoot -ALL THE WAY TO CHONG PANG and I got myself some really weird looks, I did not do it on purpose,I am not a bloody attention seeker, so maybe when I am on the dance floor, but usually no. So yeah, but then Ma got generous and got me three, THREE new pairs of shoes which amounted to almost 50 bucks. Never have spent that much on footwear so was kinda shocked.

Friendship is a gift, my dears. Please acknowledge that before it is too late. It is about putting aside differences and accepting people for who they are. It is not about demands or preferences. It is about, trust, warmth and if really lucky, affection. Friends stay thick or thin through with you but friendship should never, I repeat, NEVER be taken for granted. Whatever decision the both of you have derived upon is entirely up to you. But as the right of both your elder sister, I will like the both of you to think it carefully through cos once a relationship has been frayed, it is very difficult to patch that fray back up. And, until the end, relations are the sole treasures that we bring with us when we leave this Earth. So, keep your dear ones close to you. Believe me.

When someone you love has been gone from your life forever, you will tend to appreciate that person all the more. What we all fail to do is to appreciate people when they are in your lives. If you have not said loving, kind words to a friend, say it now. And if you feel like cursing someone, think twice before you spit out those harsh words. Because words can kill a hundred times more than the sword.

I am being philosophical. No idea why. Life is short, I may not be one who knows how to live it to the fullest but I still want to live it, according to MY terms. With no strings attached.

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Date: Thursday, August 7, 2008 | Time: 8:20 PM

Just some random thoughts that I have been having. Or should I say questions?

Why did God create Mankind?

Why do we blame god for the mistakes that WE do?

Why must Isabelle go back to Australia?

Why must I miss her soo much?

Why must Nitish get sick?

Why cant I have gotten it instead?

Why do people have prejudices against dark-skinned people?

Why do people have their own JUDGEMENTS against other people?

Why do people have prejudices against fair-skinned people?

Why do people stereotype others?

Why do they say bad, unkind things about strangers?

Why are there soo many hypocrites in the world?

Whats wrong in being REALLY different?

Why must I have a fringe?:p

Why do guys go for ultra-skinny girls?

Scrap that. Why do Indian guys go for ultra-skinny girls?

Ummmm. At the same time, why do some guys go for REALLY fat girls?

Why isnt there one person who tries to make herself better?

And if I am that one person, why do I get mocked at?

Why do some girls wear see-through blouses?! * shudders*

What is true love?

Okayyy, guess I have been losing my mind. And, I should seriously go and start reading my notes. Am reverting back to the old Hema, the one who refuses to study ANYTHING beforehand.Yupps:)

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Date: Wednesday, August 6, 2008 | Time: 9:01 PM

Uni has finally started!!!!!!!!!!!* grins like mad* I had no idea that I missed school THAT much but I did.Hehehe. Thats the nerd in me talking:p But, uni is REALLY REALLY FUN! Its like so independent and I have gotten off the right foot with my lecturers... so far. I hope that continues. Well, anyways, I only had three lessons this week but will be starting the fourth one next week. And, Pam told me that the lecturer is DAMN boring with a uppercase B! Aaargh! not looking forward to principles of banking and finance now.... boo:(

But, maths, statistics and Economics was really fun and interesting. I cant believe that I am such a Maths person but I am, unbelievably and fortunately:) I am majoring in Maths and Economics( which is soooo mathematical) and so far, I like it. the coolest part is that we do not use calculators for Maths AND statistics! yipee!!!!!!!!!!! Finally, something to my advantage.*pumps fist in the air* School days are great. Only Mondays, Tuesdays and Wednesdays and I still have time to go for my tuition(s)( Yupp, that is in plural.) So, am loving my life RIGHT NOW!

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Date: Friday, August 1, 2008 | Time: 10:32 PM

I think that this post is somewhat in response to Rajes ka's post. I totally hate foreign students, especially all those idiots from India. I am not being prejudiced but they are really starting to piss me off. I have always hated those foreign expats because though they are the ones who come here for a living but yet, they think that we owe them something. The way they behave, with their noses in their air. Damn irritating. And the way the ladies cling to their men when they see Singapore Indian girls. As if we will try to steal their men. Puh-lease! But, I had always sympathised to a certain extent the construction workers. Because of my parents. They way they will keep on saying, poor things, they left everything and came here for a living. So I used to feel sorry for them. USED TO until they started becoming devilish and pissing me off. Ok and though I hate to admit it, really creeping me out. *shivers*.
Disadvantage of giving too much tuition is that I travel to many places ALONE. I used to think that it was no biggie( which is not) but sometimes. I will leave that sentence hanging. First, there was this creep who followed me to the lift when I went to Block 253 for my tuition.I took the stairs instead and the bloody bastard had the freaking guts to literally stop at each level to know which floor I am heading for. Ok, so maybe I was being paranoid. Then, there were these two ass holes who came to my face and asked my name. I honestly felt like throwing cow dung at them but I just ignored them. Then, the final straw came when I was walking to Northpoint to take the bus when these two REALLY annoying asses came LIKE realllly close behind me and started telling each other how beautiful I was. I was like Hello?I can hear? Then, this idiot has to turn to me and say it. My reaction? Utter shock! I do not deserve it. I am covered half of the time, I do not even wear knee length skirts! my skirts are always longer than that! Aargh! There are girls out there who WANTS attention, cant they like get it? I do not want any sort of attention( ok, so probably from cute guys)I am perfectly happy. So next time, something like this happens, I am gonna show them the finger cos the bitchy, fuck off look obviously does not work. I pray it will work. Grrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!

My nitishie is sick! He is admitted in hospital. Poor darling. I hope he gets better soon.